I feel so much 
. Feels like my heart is being crashed! Feels like my heart is being pulled by a chain. So heavy!
That’s why, here I am again. Letting this feelings out. Pouring it out!
an OLD WOMAN. My neighbor, about 10 houses away. She is in her mid 70’s . So old! I could vividly see her veins in her hands bulging through her skin. So thin.
What made me feel this way?
…while riding at a public utility vehicle (PUV) heading to my work, she caught my eye. Seating just in front of me. In her lap was a “BILAO” 
with peanuts packed in a plastic worth 5 pesos.
She’s a vendor! Several years! I even know where her place is.
Glancing at her made my weird feelings grew. The feeling of heaviness! I pitied on her. I did!
I counted the number of packed peanuts, it was only 16 pieces. Imagine! 16 pieces times 5 pesos would result to 80 pesos?! The nerve! How did she able to survive knowing she could only get that amount. What about her fare? 14 pesos back and forth . Her lunch? I know she’ll be staying in the place ’till the afternoon.
After the long day selling, how much money could she able to bring with her at home?
I wanna help! I want to buy all that peanuts! But I did not! The crap!
I could hardly stare at her when she’s fronting me. If she happened to look somewhere, that’s the time I could stare her face. So old really. I could see her left eye semi-closed.
Her skin.
Her posture!
…whew!
Good thing that somebody bought 2 pieces of her packed peanuts. That made me a ‘lil okay.
But me?
So pathetic! I only just pitied on her… no concrete actions!
For now, prayer is the only thing I could give to her. I wish she could have all the luxury in life. To savor it.
Unfair life!
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i’m sure you know now what to do the next time you see her.
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admin Reply:
July 22nd, 2009 at 7:21 am
….hope so! thnks!
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oh…
unfair life…
so unjust..
(*sobs*)
(hope u also comment on my blogs…thanks)
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admin Reply:
July 22nd, 2009 at 10:20 am
c’est la vie….
tnX for commenting!
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bea Reply:
July 22nd, 2009 at 10:32 am
sure..
no prob…
=)
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admin Reply:
July 22nd, 2009 at 10:33 am
hehhehe! sa uulitin!
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bea Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 10:15 am
sure..basta daan ka din sa page ko..thanks!
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:31 pm
yeah sure,,,
aejejej!
thanks Ulit…
comments ka sa New Post Ko soon Hap…
ahehe!
Daghan ko makit-an ana. Pero that’s life jud. Not all of us are fortunate enough to live a good life.
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:37 am
wahahah! lGi…pirmi man ko kita ani niya..sauna pah…
den dghan saD ko mkit-an like here…
cant juSt deny the feeling lngj uD bry..whaha!
emo panagsa bah..
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ka-sad naman…
next time if you have money, bilhin mo na lang tinda ni manang.
hi mark! thanks for the visit
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:38 am
wahahah!
cant do it nga…wahah!
honEstly, nahihiya ako wen doing good things in public..wahahh!
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Wawa naman si lola… Next time bigay mo nalang pang lunch mo sa kanya okaya pag baon mo sya ng sandwich
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:38 am
whahah!
soon if have the guts na Poh….
aheheh!
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next time bilhin mo na lahat
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:38 am
ahehehhe!,, uu nga!
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veri intrestng budy,nice post and nice site
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 12:58 am
tnX so Much..have a great day!
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minsan ganun talaga, nastrucked ka pa sa idea..at least nafeel mo ung situation nya..prayer is the best way to help..
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 1:33 am
aheheh! prayer lng talaga…
minsan kaSi pag Emo moDe..wahah!
we feel that way…
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well, that’s life here in pinas..we have seen them but unfortunately, we couldn’t help becoz we have also our own life that needs attention too..and you are right, the only thing that you can to give her is prayer…god bless you..
added you on my list…
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 1:54 am
that’s the beSt point im waiting…
waaaa..
ito pala ang risOn…
tnX tnx!
goDbless too…
ill be adding you too…
tnX for visiting…
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Mark,
It doesn’t mean one is already poor if he/she only brings home less than what we usually earn in a day. We shouldn’t always make money the basis of comparison. As long as the money she brought home is enough for them to survive and they’re genuinely happy with it – then they’re already rich.
Cheers!
Beejing
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 5:04 am
wahahh!
nice 1 beej…
i remember na noon the short i read Yesterday sa national booksTore..so related juD..
yeah!
that’s the Keyword “Happy”..
thanks for that…
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she is trampled but not crashed… she has the courage, the determination to be independent..kind of sad if she has children.. we the younger ones will not survive this, i believe…
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admin Reply:
July 23rd, 2009 at 6:40 am
…perhaps…
thanks for commenting! Godbless!
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bitaw, there’s so much suffering in the world.
sometimes, i wonder why..
how does God choose who’ll suffer and who won’t?
what’s the point anyway? if He wanted us to see the other side of the coin, does it have to be through other people? why not just let us experience both sides, just to be fair? why condemn one to a life of suffering and not the other?
hai2x.. i’ll definitely ask Him when i see Him.
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admin Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 3:16 am
sUltii nya ko hap…
wahahhah! kuyaw!
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twinks Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 3:29 am
hahaha.. sure! pwede gai magdungan ta pangutana.
pwede pud kung ika’y makauna, ako imong sultian. hahaha!
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admin Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 3:30 am
mag Sure ta TwinkS…
wahahahha!
Puhun nlng…
aheheheh!
ok pman ko
whahahh!
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twinks Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 3:35 am
hahaha.. bitaw..
palayo, palayo!
tok2x bong2x pa jud..
hahaha!
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admin Reply:
July 24th, 2009 at 3:37 am
pEru u made a note in FB JUD BWT tHIS pOST….toinks..
was shocked lng!
aheheh!
binili mo nalang sana lahat ng tinda nya… or ni libre mo nalang sya ng pamasahe dba? kawawa nman..
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admin Reply:
July 27th, 2009 at 12:47 am
aheheh! I wiSh IcuD,,,
have no guTs in doing gooD deeds in PubLic..dont knoW Why….
baliktad ata PrinCiple ko…
aheheh!@
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be thankful you have a decent job…but i think one way to pay God for your blessing is to share it with the others…saving a little bit from your pocket wont hurt you in buying those peanuts when you two see each other again…God bless you both.
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admin Reply:
July 27th, 2009 at 12:48 am
thankS you for your woRds….
oo nga,,, dapat Bumili nga ako…
but ala eh! feelings ko lng pina-iral ko..
anD have to have that guts para gagawa ng Mabuti in Public..
ahehheh!
tnX Bro!
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