my heart is being crashed

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I feel so much 21-Heartbroken. Feels like my heart is being crashed! Feels like my heart is being pulled by a chain. So heavy!

That’s why,  here I am again. Letting this feelings out. Pouring it  out!

an OLD WOMAN. My neighbor, about 10 houses away. She is in her mid 70′s . So old! I could vividly see her veins in her hands bulging through her skin. So thin.

What made me feel this way?

…while riding at a public utility vehicle (PUV) heading to my work, she caught my eye.  Seating just in front of me.  In her lap was a “BILAO” with peanuts packed in a plastic worth 5 pesos.

She’s a vendor! Several years! I even know where her place is.

Glancing at her made my weird feelings grew. The feeling of heaviness! I pitied on her. I did!

I counted the number of packed peanuts, it was only 16 pieces. Imagine! 16 pieces times 5 pesos would result to 80 pesos?! The nerve! How did she able to survive knowing she could only get that amount. What about her fare? 14 pesos back and forth . Her lunch? I know she’ll be staying in the place ’till the afternoon.

After the long day selling, how much money could she able to bring with her at home?

I wanna help! I want to buy all that peanuts! But I did not! The crap!

I could hardly stare at her when she’s fronting me. If she happened to look somewhere, that’s the time I could stare her face. So old really. I could see her left eye semi-closed.

Her skin.

Her posture!

…whew!

Good thing that somebody bought 2 pieces of her packed peanuts. That made me a ‘lil okay.

But me?

So pathetic! I only just pitied on her… no concrete actions!

For now, prayer is the only thing I could give to her. I wish she could have all the luxury in life. To savor it.

Unfair life!

  • http://www.multiply.com/artphotography/asp evieaba

    its really hard here to see if I am on the same subject
    kindof weird site up however,
    I was only bother by one paying so much attention to OLD”
    if you live long enough you willl become looking somewhat like her”
    Trust me :beauty is only skin deep:
    I always talk to the homeless and give::”ALWAYS”

  • AdrienneCherry

    If you are willing to buy a house, you would have to get the loan. Furthermore, my brother all the time uses a commercial loan, which is the most fast.

  • http://thegreatmaldito.com Maldito

    be thankful you have a decent job…but i think one way to pay God for your blessing is to share it with the others…saving a little bit from your pocket wont hurt you in buying those peanuts when you two see each other again…God bless you both.

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      thankS you for your woRds….
      oo nga,,, dapat Bumili nga ako…

      but ala eh! feelings ko lng pina-iral ko..
      anD have to have that guts para gagawa ng Mabuti in Public..

      ahehheh!

      tnX Bro!

  • egat

    binili mo nalang sana lahat ng tinda nya… or ni libre mo nalang sya ng pamasahe dba? kawawa nman..

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      aheheh! I wiSh IcuD,,,

      have no guTs in doing gooD deeds in PubLic..dont knoW Why….

      baliktad ata PrinCiple ko…

      aheheh!@

  • twinks

    bitaw, there’s so much suffering in the world.

    sometimes, i wonder why..

    how does God choose who’ll suffer and who won’t?

    what’s the point anyway? if He wanted us to see the other side of the coin, does it have to be through other people? why not just let us experience both sides, just to be fair? why condemn one to a life of suffering and not the other?

    hai2x.. i’ll definitely ask Him when i see Him.

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      sUltii nya ko hap…

      wahahhah! kuyaw!

      • twinks

        hahaha.. sure! pwede gai magdungan ta pangutana.
        pwede pud kung ika’y makauna, ako imong sultian. hahaha!

        • http://markg87.net/ admin

          mag Sure ta TwinkS…

          wahahahha!
          Puhun nlng…

          aheheheh!
          ok pman ko
          whahahh!

          • twinks

            hahaha.. bitaw..
            palayo, palayo!
            tok2x bong2x pa jud..
            hahaha!

            • admin

              pEru u made a note in FB JUD BWT tHIS pOST….toinks..

              was shocked lng!

              aheheh!

  • http://www.reanaclaire.blogspot.com claire

    she is trampled but not crashed… she has the courage, the determination to be independent..kind of sad if she has children.. we the younger ones will not survive this, i believe…

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      …perhaps…

      thanks for commenting! Godbless!

  • http://jodispride.blogspot.com jodi

    well, that’s life here in pinas..we have seen them but unfortunately, we couldn’t help becoz we have also our own life that needs attention too..and you are right, the only thing that you can to give her is prayer…god bless you..

    added you on my list…

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      that’s the beSt point im waiting…

      waaaa..

      ito pala ang risOn…

      tnX tnx!

      goDbless too…
      ill be adding you too…
      tnX for visiting…

  • http://butikupalace.blogspot.com ritz

    veri intrestng budy,nice post and nice site

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      tnX so Much..have a great day!

  • Beejing

    Mark,

    It doesn’t mean one is already poor if he/she only brings home less than what we usually earn in a day. We shouldn’t always make money the basis of comparison. As long as the money she brought home is enough for them to survive and they’re genuinely happy with it – then they’re already rich.

    Cheers!
    Beejing

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      wahahh!
      nice 1 beej…
      i remember na noon the short i read Yesterday sa national booksTore..so related juD..
      yeah!
      that’s the Keyword “Happy”..

      thanks for that…

  • The Lady in Green Ruffles

    minsan ganun talaga, nastrucked ka pa sa idea..at least nafeel mo ung situation nya..prayer is the best way to help..

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      aheheh! prayer lng talaga…

      minsan kaSi pag Emo moDe..wahah!

      we feel that way…

  • http://myorangevest.blogspot.com chikletz

    next time bilhin mo na lahat :D

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      ahehehhe!,, uu nga!

  • http://winkiesworld.wordpress.com Winkie

    ka-sad naman…

    next time if you have money, bilhin mo na lang tinda ni manang. :)

    hi mark! thanks for the visit :)

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      wahahah!
      cant do it nga…wahah!
      honEstly, nahihiya ako wen doing good things in public..wahahh!

  • http://bryankarl.net Bryan Karl

    Daghan ko makit-an ana. Pero that’s life jud. Not all of us are fortunate enough to live a good life.

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      wahahah! lGi…pirmi man ko kita ani niya..sauna pah…

      den dghan saD ko mkit-an like here…

      cant juSt deny the feeling lngj uD bry..whaha!
      emo panagsa bah..

  • http://www.sprinkledmaple.blogspot.com bea

    oh…
    unfair life…
    so unjust..

    (*sobs*)

    (hope u also comment on my blogs…thanks)

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      c’est la vie….

      tnX for commenting!

      • http://www.sprinkledmaple.blogspot.com bea

        sure..
        no prob…
        =)

        • http://markg87.net/ admin

          hehhehe! sa uulitin!

          • http://www.sprinkledmaple.blogspot.com bea

            sure..basta daan ka din sa page ko..thanks!

            • http://markg87.net/ admin

              yeah sure,,,

              aejejej!

              thanks Ulit…

              comments ka sa New Post Ko soon Hap…

              ahehe!

  • jepoy

    Wawa naman si lola… Next time bigay mo nalang pang lunch mo sa kanya okaya pag baon mo sya ng sandwich :-D

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      whahah!

      soon if have the guts na Poh….

      aheheh!

  • http://comfortedlife.blogspot.com Jerick

    i’m sure you know now what to do the next time you see her.

    • http://markg87.net/ admin

      ….hope so! thnks!

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